Thursday, June 3, 2010

Worrisome

I found a lump on my neck last week, so I went to the doctor yesterday to see what it was. The doctor couldn't tell if it is on my thyroid or lymph node, but doubts that it's my lymph node because I'm not otherwise sick. She sent me to get a sonogram on the lump to see if it's on the thyroid or not. If it is on the thyroid, I'll have to get a biopsy done on it because the lump is 2-2 1/2 cm diameter right now. If it isn't, I'll have to get a CAT scan on my neck to see exactly what it is. I was told that I'd get the results yesterday afternoon or this morning at the latest. I still haven't heard from the doctor's office, even though I have called several times and they keep telling me that they're leaving notes for the nurse to call me back, but so far nothing. I'm almost to the point where I will drive to the doctor's office and tell them I'm not leaving until they let me know which of the two tests I'll have to have next. I don't know which one I want it to be. I don't know what to do. I'm really upset because I don't know what's going to happen or what is wrong with me. I have some symptoms of hypothyroidism, including brittle nails and weight gain, but that could also be me just not exercising for a while. Rex has given me a blessing, so I've calmed down a lot, but I'm afraid that if I get to work tonight without hearing anything, then I'll be a basketcase all night. I haven't been able to sleep or eat well because I'm so worried. This really stinks.